There have been a lot of tears today. They are tears that I’m sure are exacerbated by pregnancy hormones, but tears just the same. Tears of loss.

I have lost so much of my identity in these last few months, but I am not without hope. I have lost my job, we have lost income, I have lost my independence and sense of adulthood. It is humiliating. It is humbling.

I have accepted the tears much more quickly than accepting help. But if I may have a moment of honesty, I am struggling. And so there are tears.

“You make beautiful things out of the dust. You make beautiful things out of us. You make me new, You are making me new.” -Gungor #CIDP #warrior #givemeJesus #awareness #spoonie #chronicillness